smile please =)

i can't smile like this now
=(




my whole world is in a mess
stop the craps
i want to run out and gone somewhere alone
i had it enough
i had it enough to listen to those things!
it's not my problem now so don't tell me i never listen
it's your problem
it's the problem about money
about the precious MONEY
whenever i want to talk to you
you screw it up just like what you will in my future
screw up my life screw up my future screw up my days
you never listen
stop telling me about YOUR problem DAD's problem and never think about MY problem
i don't give a shit on those things
honestly why should i take all these things?
i want to own my bussiness
i just want to study
i just want to choose the path
yesyesyes
scholarship,form 6,matric these are freeeeee
the problem is
you know what?
i don't even bother

SHIT






people are going to start their studies tomorrow
what am i doing?
i don't even know what my future holds!!










i feel like want to cry like a child
stay strong?
i don't want to be strong
i was too strong untill u n dad always think i will accept whatever u asked me to do
I HATE THIS seriously
i bear with it for such a long time
everytime u wanted to start the fight,i shut my mouth
but you don't even try to understand me!!!!!!!!!







whywhywhywhywhywhy!!!!!!!!!!

















i really need a shoulder now
but no one is there
serve me right






i hope i did the right decision
thank you for all you did
and i am really sorry....
i will remember
we picnic in the garden
i gave you a birthday suprise but you knew it
i sing a song to you on my piano,perfect two
i call you everyday during the ns thing
i won't forget these memories
sorry.....













i really really hope that i can get over this
smile please =)



no more tears